Getting Started
August 25th, 2010 § 2 Comments
I suppose I should finally get the ball rolling on this blog, huh? Shall I introduce myself? Or just start writing? I never know how to write the first post. Maybe I’ll just start by explaining WHY I started this blog. That sounds like a good place to begin.
Well as my side bar says, I will be 30 in July of 2011. It kind of freaks me out! I have to admit. I feel like it’s a really significant birthday, and it makes my own mortality seem more real. Ok ok, before you analyze that statement, I’m not comparing 30 to dying, but I guess you could say that I don’t feel like a kid anymore.
I got married when I was 20 and had kids not long after. It’s definitely what I always wanted and how I wanted to do things, but doing things in that order certainly put the focus on the kids and away from my own, personal desires. Now I feel like I’m at a point where I want to do something for me. Both of my girls have gone back to school and will both be in full time! I’m finally at a place where I have the time to devote to myself, and damn it, I’m going to be a little selfish! That’s where the list comes in.
I realized, when reflecting on my 29 years, that there were so many things that I always have wanted to do, but hadn’t even pursued them in the least bit. Was I taking my life for granted? My grandpa passed away in April and for me it was the first in-you-face experience with death I’ve ever had. It was like a slap in the face that yeah, we are only here for so long, and you never know when you’re gonna go. When I go, I want the slideshow at my funeral to reflect a life full of adventures, risk, and experiences! While I LOVE being a mom, I don’t want that to be the only thing I am or will ever be about.
I no longer want to be held back by statements like “I’m afraid of heights”, “I hate to sweat”, or “I could never…” If I try something and don’t like it, that’s one thing, but I at least want to try it. That’s what the list is all about. No more putting things off. For what? There’s no better time than the present because you never know what the future holds.
-Autumn
